The waiting game...

Yesterday I applied to both Backroads and to Grad School at University of Colorado at Boulder. Now, I wait.

Some days I am confident about my chances, some days I am not. I tend to prepare myself for the worst. The next 6 months of my life are going to be huge. I am anxious, but I am ready for a change. I have this strange desire to scare the hell out of myself. I have an amazing job, I work with people I love, and I can't get enough of Austin, but there is something missing. I cannot explain it to anyone, but I just need something else.

At times I am pretty sure I have lost all of my marbles and I should be saving for a house or putting money into a 401k plan, or trying to settle down in some way, shape or form. But then, I step back and look at the big picture and realize that I am SO young. I have time for all of that, "when I grow up". This is not a crafty escape from the real world. I look at it as seizing an opportunity that I will never have again. I don't have a husband/serious boyfriend, I don't have a dog, I don't have any kids. What I do have is the freedom to do WHATEVER I want right now. I almost feel like it is the one time in my life where I have zero responsibilities other than myself. I know it can (and will) change, but for now I am seizing the day. I am taking this chance and I am running.

I can't wait!